A weekend at home

When I say: "I am at home." People usually ask: "Oh so you are in Constanta for the weekend?" No, not at all. I'm home, in Bucharest. After I had fun with a friend who slept over at my place Friday night, I went at the market and bought lots of flowers! Now the room is filled with wonderful scent. I love those colors so much: pink, white, yellow!! I just couldn't ask for more! As the weather was cloudy, windy and cold I decided to spend my weekend at home... reading, painting, writing on the blog and listening to music. I had a relaxing time... but I didn't do everything I had in mind. Is time passing too fast...? Or maybe I am just moving very slowly, being very lazy...

Unfortunately, the flowers I bought are not so fresh.... because winter is almost here. I am dreaming of fine sunny weather... What do I have in mind? It's time to prepare for snowy days, exams....and Christmas. Should I write a wish list and sent it to Santa?

Weekend Trip

Yes, this is also a post about my weekend.... a two-day trip to Constanta. It was nice returning home but I felt very tired and nostalgic. I slept and recovered and time passed so fast... At least I had the chance to spend a few moments on the beach. I missed it so much. The sea is part of my inner soul structure. I will always return wherever I go, no matter how far. The smell of the sea is the smell of home.  Nevertheless, I felt like there is nothing left for me to do in Constanta. Now I am busy making Bucharest part of me, part of my art, my life and my soul. This is a wonderful adventure. I love my new friends, I love the hours spent in the studio. I don't have much time to think about what's happening because it all happens so fast! A month has already passed since I started university and I still feel like a newcomer with no experience. Yes, there are many goals waiting to be accomplished. I wish I had the time to post daily... really....

And still, the sea is always in my heart . White seagulls fly through my mind.

New home. New life.

Hello everyone! Here I am at last, back on the blog and ready to share new experience. Almost two weeks have passed since I started to officially live in Bucharest; two weeks of surprises, disappointments, happy moments, discoveries, magic. I came here to paint, I came here to study, I came here to meet new people, I came here to make Bucharest my home. Yes, to make it part of me. Bucharest is not just a city name like it was for me some time ago, no, it is a living being. It breathes. It speaks. It moves... and I move along... or at least I try to.  There are so many things happening at the same time... and so fast. It is truly amazing.

I was a little sad in the beginning because I was not used to living alone.... I didn't like coming home with no one around the house to say hello to. But now I quite like it. I can listen to music, or enjoy the silence anytime...and I can be messy without disturbing anyone.

Sometimes I forget where I am and what I am doing. I forget the awesome situation I am in and the fact that I am in the right place. In other words, I get used to everything and start concentrating on the small activities like how much chocolate should I eat today. I must remain surprised, I must remain conscious of how lucky I am. I must always live the moment and see mainly the good part in everything. I love this experience. It is my own adventure. All I fear is being lonely. I don't want that. I don't like it. I need a friend by my side. But let's leave this apart. Fears are no good. Fears must disappear.Life is beautiful. I am doing my best every day to make it even more beautiful.

Here are two portraits I painted just before the exams, more than one month ago. I will hopefully share my first university paintings soon ! I also promise that, from now on, my blog posts will be more frequent !

People I would like to meet

Those 5 portraits were presented along with other 21 paintings and drawings at the interview, which was actually the last admission exam at UnArte in Bucharest. To me it seemed those were the most appreciated ones... maybe because they are spontaneous. They are not portraits of people in real life, but images of my own personality. They are different parts of me and independent beings at the same time. Who are those people, what are they thinking, are they happy? I would like to know that, I would like to meet them.

Do they seem familiar? Well I posted them before setting off to Cluj last summer. Remember...? Take a look here.

I've decided it's not possible for me to study both painting and history of arts at the same time so I've chosen painting and here I am.... at the beginning of a wonderful journey. I still haven't found a nice place to stay so I'm still searching. I will be heading to Bucharest tomorrow with my parents and look for an apartment all day long. I hope this problem will be solved soon because there are many other things to be done. 

Even though the situation seems clear now, I still am pretty confused. How should I feel now? I am excited, nostalgic, sad, happy, energized, worried, blue, pink, yellow and all the other colors at the same time. 

I could use a long vacation to a sunny island in the middle of the ocean right now! Oops the weather is rainy, autumn is here. Time for me to start the painting courses.... in a week. hehehe and I love it. Yes, I do love the present moment.

More posts about my adventure coming soon. This is a live broadcast!

It's a deal

A lot happened since my last post on the blog. Guess what...? Level 2: university student. Well, yes after a long summer, I finally made it. I passed my exams in Bucharest and I was accepted, not only in the painting class but also in the history of arts. Which means: double agent, double student, double success, double trouble.... and... a big double chocolate cake for me at the end! hihihi

I feel great, relieved! Even though summer is over, the weather is still sunny and warm enough during daytime. The sky is blue and.... I have so many things to do! Find a place to live in the city which is from now on my second home, buying stuff, organizing, cleaning, replacing, preparing for my new life. But who cares? Why should I worry, even for a second? I feel fine and energized!

Looking back, I think it was a wonderful experience with a happy end... because good luck will always be by my side as long as I have on open mind and a loving heart. 

I regret nothing. This is what's best for me for sure. I learned so much, I met new people, I made new friends. In other words this was one of the most exciting holidays of my life.... and still is.  

Now I can read as many books and watch as many movies as I want! My reloaded September vacation, here I come!  The beach is more beautiful than ever. It just couldn't have been better.

Of course I will start posting artwork again real soon! Remember those en-detaille portraits? Brace yourselves !

Back by the sea

After the two-week course in Bucharest, I returned home to enjoy the most beautiful weather by the sea. Even though I loved being away exploring the capital city, I was glad to come back. Now I have to wait till the 10th September, the day of the admission exam, and also my birthday. hahah I will return to Bucharest then for three days and after that... I hope... for the next three years. It was a great adventure (and... still is) and I treasured every moment of it but for God's sake, I want this whole story to come to an end! I want to be a student and go to sleep without thinking about any exam anymore. At least for a while.

As I was saying, I am enjoying fine weather here in Constanta. The sea is blue, the sky is tall and clear the sun is shining and.... there is nobody around. Tourists seen to have disappeared during those two weeks. In other words, perfect! :)) Strolling around town on a sunny day is a delight.

I came home just in time to say bye-bye to friends who left Romania yesterday for the UK. From now on they are university students in London. I wish them good luck and all the best. I hope to see them soon.

As I am standing by sea I can feel something different in the air. The sun light is not the same, the sky has a deeper color. I am not the same either. Yes, autumn is almost here.

On your marks. Get set. Go !!

All recovered and ready for a new start I've decided to share some photos of my grandma's beautiful garden in the countryside. We paid her a visit last week. Wandering around flowers, orange big pumpkins and colorful butterflies made me feel calm, accomplished. I just love those drops of shiny color which pop out everywhere.

Tomorrow my two-week holiday at home comes to an end as I will be heading to Bucharest in order to attend some painting courses at the University. I can't wait to explore the city which I will very soon call home. Even though I visited Bucharest two or three times, I know very little about it, its streets, parks and museums. 

This time I have no doubt that I will be accepted because I will also sign up for the history of arts courses. I love reading a lot, I enjoy writing and studying, ... but I also love painting! I don't know what's going to happen; all I know is that I am happy again and ready to learn new stuff, explore and make new friends. Who knows? Maybe extraordinary things are waiting for me in Bucharest. Maybe the rejection in Cluj was a blessing because now I'm stronger and I feel I learned many many things; and I will never forget my friends there. I am actually staring to enjoy this experience. :-)

I'm so very curious.... I'm going to be here with new posts as soon as I can !

Upside down

I've already arrived home... and I don't know if I like it or not. My admission experience wasn't very happy... because I didn't make it. I'm not going to be an arts student in Cluj. It hurts. Why? Because now I have to change my plans. All my plans. Failure was not an option. Yes, I was a little afraid but I didn't think that this was going to happen to me for real. It happened. I just couldn't stand the feeling that, after an entire year of hard work, I wasn't able to make it. I felt just like someone slammed the door into my face and I could do nothing to change the verdict. I thought of my parents who did everything for me, I thought of my teacher who helped me so much, I thought of my friends who managed just fine.

Now I've decided to apply for the arts university in Bucharest. Here I am. I've never ever imagined that I'm going to be a student in Bucharest. It was never an option. It wasn't part of my plans... but now those plans mean nothing. My mind is upside down. I can't wait to get back on my feet. 

Learn to accept failure and transform it into a new opportunity. Learn to embrace the unexpected and don't make long term plans. Learn to stand tall. Learn to be a winner even when you fail.

This is not the end. 

Home

Home is by the sea. Home is where I can hear the waves. Home is where the air is salty, yet fresh. And home is where there is always something inspiring to paint. 

As I was born on the Black Sea shore, I will miss it while away and I will always feel an aching desire to come back again and again. Sometimes I wish I were a mermaid and never be able to leave the aquatic paradise. But maybe if I were, I'd desperately want to touch the flowers, run through forests and sleep on the the sand. Who knows? Maybe the best thing to do is sit and enjoy life as it is. And paint. Paint samples of love. Love for adventure. Love for the sea. I think you already got used to my photos "en detaille". Seascapes en detaille this time.